(note i hate capitalized words...please do not be offended on my punctuation!)
it has been some time since i have done this whole blogging thing..i was probably 16 using xanga or livejournal last time i have done something like this, but yesterday i just got the notion to start this back up.
im a confused 20 year old, i will be a junior majoring in advertising design. however, i am not really sure where i want to go with this whole thing; i know i have two years left still but everyone else around me (my friends) know what they want to do with their life and i am rather frustrated.(if anyone who reads this is in the art/design world please inform me on some interesting ideas!!!!) im not controlling but i do like to have things planned out, and this is something that isn't planned out. ACTUALLY this whole up coming school year is kind of up in the air; i always wished i had joined a sorority my freshman year, and i am debating whether or not to do it this year. i am confused whether or not my heart is in swimming anymore..this college swimming is such a let down for me compared to my accomplishments in high school; i get so upset, kind of depressed, and stressed out during the swim season now and it takes the fun out of something that i have loved for so long. also i would like to have weekends open to go to design conferences, workshops, etc., and i do not have that option 2 out of the 3 quarters that swimming takes up! another reason i would like to stay on the swim team is my friends, we all had a fall out with each other this year (the 4 of us all doing our own thing) and this summer we all gained our composure, and if i dont swim i wont have all that much time to spend with them; but i suppose that means we will all just have to make a better effort to see each other.
i am sorry this first post is me rambling and not that interesting...like i said i am confused and have so many decisions to make, well one; swimming, and i have less than a month to figure it out HELP!